OMG!!!!

Went 2 cut hair just now.

It seemed that i have nothing better to do, and gets into some sort of trouble.

Cut until super super super super super SHORT!!!!!!!!!

Frozen....

I say must cut until still can tie de, then she make until cannot tie de.

Cham liao....

How ar???????

The hair is like super straight down below.

Like some primary kid first time go school de hairstyle.

Damn!

Si liao lah.

How i go back school on 10 to get results????

It cant possibly grow long enough in this period of 10 days.

What to do????????

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh................

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 5:28 PM

Eyes hurting now, sibei pain.

But still not compared to yesterday's.

Stayed up to watch death note, which ended at around 3am, to my horror.

I thought it will be just 2hr, end at 1.30am.

And then the tears wont stop flowing, like i said.

Somemore so late le, eyes of coz pain lah.

Now morning not so bad le.

Just a slight tingling pain.

Hope it will get better.

And i think my eyes are swollen from ytd's work.

Hope it will recover soon....

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 11:50 AM

I hate it.

So what if get good results?

So what if get good ranking??

Nobody cares.

And it's pointless.

I dun care anymore.

I cant believe that the only ones that cared were superficial.

This realization just stabbed my heart, the hard way.

I.....

This is hurting.

And the tears were flowing non-stop.

Since nobody cared, i figured out that i am plain stupid.

Stupid enough to even think they will be impressed.

Now that i know, it's good enough.

This day will be the final end, to all the looking-forward.

I wont make the same foolish mistake again.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 10:27 PM

The last day of school.

And also last farewell to the fond and not so fond memories.

Ppl say we can keep memories.

But i dun believe in this.

Memories, will fade off, as time passes.

Whether u like it or not, it's goodbye forever.

So yea.

Got back results.

Last night, i cant believe that i am actually anticipating for that moment.

I am eager 2 find out my ranking, which is a total slap to the face.

I am actually like all the others, who were waiting for their results.

I had thought this as pointless, but i end up doing the same thing.

What's wrong with me??

Is this a show of lack of confidence??

Or the fear??

But ya get like this ranking lo.

No difference to me.

Know already so what??

I was like sitting there, so sian, even joanne noticed that.

They havent gt back results, so they were waiting.

Waiting can be pretty tough, i know this.

And so the story ends..... with not much interesting conclusion i was waiting for.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 2:45 PM

Came up with a new theory just now.

If you are really PRO, prove it.

And yea i am pro.

So i am going to prove that my subject choices are not wrong.

This is just the start.

The choosing.

Next year, gonna work hard and get the best results i can get.

Going on a record-breaking journey fraught with difficulties.

And trust me, wanting to get all A1s for everything.

Nothing wrong with your eyes. Really. Seriously.

If i can't do it, i guess i am jumping off the flat. LOL

Kidding.... XD

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 5:42 PM

261009--- a day not worth talking about.

Let the pictures do the talking bah.





The dangerous ride on that monster truck.
Freakin smelly in there.
Almost suffocating.
To think I was in there for 2 days...











This drink sucks! No offense though.
But if taken be4 food, it tastes horrible.
I hate this brand nowadays.
It is like diluted??










A loan shark's doings on a wall of flat.
Surprised?
Such things happened in singapore.
There's the paint too.
Just never take it, ltr
ppl think i siao go take pics..










Last farewell~
Who knows if we will get any chances more
2 lunch 2gther?
So be thankful for everything
now be4 they are GONE
4ever.









The split up request of jr's cpl.
Took this screenshot
in case she accused me brk her cpl.
But jus let u see
wat's ur feeling on seeing this??
Sad??
Relief??
Expressionless??
I dk.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 4:10 PM

Freaking boring...

Am rotting away...

The fun is no longer there.

And emptiness is setting in...

Just like the sun always rising and setting...

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 4:07 PM

A day of lies, with an element of truth inside.

Yesterday played the dangerous game of lying.

In audi, dun worry.....

Too bored, so mixed around and changed personality.

Changed 2 the more powerful, domineering one.

And go chat with fren's cpl.

And then, the game started, without me knowing actually.

Weave up a lot of lies and say a lot of crap, and did a lot of ignoring also.

And then I had some fun, leaving that person in confusion.

This morning switched 2 my original char.

But still bored, and addicted to the 'evil' personality.

So switched again 2 play the game again.

And i did something, that seems to make me feel like committing stealing crime.

But nvm.

I will get out of it, once i really get tired of this game of lies.

Truth, just now ex-cpl asked me y i broke with him.

Initially wanted 2 lie 2 make him feel better???

But the words i type out, contradict with this.

I just said plainly the real reason.

He never reply, and i did feel a bit short-lived guilt.

But so ya, escaped to another world.

Ltr maybe going in again to play the lying game.

But this is like playing with fire.

Someday is going to be discovered, but i dun care.

Maybe nobody will break my game, and it will only end at my own desire.

I rule the game.

I made the rules and state the terms clearly be4 everything.

I made used of their weakness, and exploited it.

Too bad, should hav felt pity, but no way man.

I am the more powerful one in this game.

If 'he' wanna quit, suits me.

So yea... mus be careful not to involve any emotions.

And may this game lasts until I am totally sick of it.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 4:24 PM

Got the streaming form jus now.

In a dilemma.

Ytd i had a hard time convincing myself 2 take triple science.

After all, it is supposing to be the "Best" class.

But this honor of being in the class comes with a price.

Too much stress??? Much more then i possibly be able to handle.

I cant even handle a simple sec 2 EOY exam stress.

Then how could i take it???

But to think long, even i do survive, the rewards should be rewarding.

Triple science--- you can get jobs from more areas, hence more choices next time.

And for the double science which i decided to take, ok lah.

I figure out.

It was funny, how i dislike biology last time.

And now i am here playing with the idea of opting biology.

What's come over me???

Maybe this is the aftereffect of the heavy-impact Eoy strike.

The paper, was confidence-wrenching.

I once thought i am pro in physics.

Ok maybe not pro LOL, just quite good and have some interest.

But i realized this is not the case.

I scored the lowest for the physic section in the paper.

Quite pathetic hor???

Thinking, physics is mainly for engineers bah..

Engineers doesnt sound very appealing, though it had crossed my mind long ago.

And surprisingly, highest for biology.

I am actually kind of interested in it.

Think of being a doctor.

Hahaha......just kidding lah.

Not really want to face blood every day.

But who knows?? Maybe so influenced that decided to study medical courses.

HHAHA.......

For the electives subjects?? Geo?? Hist?? Lit??

Lit is definitely out. No interest.

Geo?? Seems easier. But nothing is free in this world.

So what if really easier??

The price?? Next time find an examining river job bah.

Hist?? Kinda want to take that.

But as the public impression goes... it is HARDER.

Seriously deep down, i dun giv a damn about hard or not.

Nothing is easy.

And the promises are better....hopefully.

Banker??? (actually not so sure about this)

Historian?? (NO WAY!!!!!!)

Lawyer??? (I'll die be4 even going on court)

Not much though.

But does have an interest in that.

So yea...like that loh.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 4:39 PM

Surprising...

A stranger actually cared more than only family.

Ironic??

Actually part of it is my fault.

Ytd as i mentioned had a terrible headache.

Couldnt take it.

So post in facebook for fun.

Anyway nobody would care.

But surprisingly 2day check, someone cared.

Yea.... unbelievable eh???

But it indeed happened.

So happy someone actually cared.

Especially someone totally stranger.

At least this proves my existence.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 3:24 PM

Headache sia...

2day gt back results.

But it is not the results that made me pain.

Not very satisfied with the results.

But it mets my target, except for some.

Science, got quite a shock.

Like froze for 1 second.

Then thought wah so cham....

Get so lan....

But luckily it says that only 1 ppl got A1.

Phew... relief...

But another thing not content is the maths.

Haizz....paper 1 so lan.

And that nokia qns which is so 'tonic', killed me.

Yuan lai i forgot cancel my wrong method.

So yea, i think that teacher may have done it on purpose too.

Take the wrong answer and method and marked wrong.

But then think back, my correct method is a bit weird also.

Hiaz suan le..

Bu guan le...

It's over.

Case closed.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 5:01 PM

Very sian leh...

Audi laggy, anyway i dun feel like playing also.

Facebook played already....

Did random browsing internet le....

Everything that shuld be done had been done...

Nothing left.

That's the pitiful thing.

When you used to be busy with hardly any time to spare, you wish you can be free.

But once you had all the time in the world, you wish you had something to do.

And me, dilemma.

I wished school will continue like it is, months ago.

Still busy, but with enough time to study and play.

That's the enjoyment.

Sometimes too much of a good thing totally spoils everything.

So when there is a perfect mixture of play and work, it is the best.

Trust me, the BEST.

But of coz when you are having the best, you usually dun realize it, until it is gone.

We never cherish things.

That's the pathetic human nature evryone had.

So now that the best is gone, and we started reflecting back.

Then we realize not only did we not cherish it, we often complain about it.

Complain about not having time to play.

Complain about having so much homework.

Complain about going to school being a nuisance.

Complain about the lesson being too boring.

Complain about the recess food being same.

Complain about the things in school.

Everything, whatever we can complain about, I believe is all being done.

Until there is nothing left.

And now, I am sitting here, thinking of all the complaints that I once made.

Can you believe it???

I am actually wishing I can have it 1 more time.

If, maybe time ccan rewind, and I will definitely enjoy life differently.

I will learn to appreciate everything that I once own.

But now too late.

Regret.

Ok maybe this is just 1 min regret that i have now.

The moment when school starts again, I will probably forgeet about it.

But the point I wan 2 say is that:

Cherish everything around us.

Dun wait until it's gone, thnen you turn back to regret.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 12:14 PM

And with a smile, I clicked that after much hesitation...

Real hesitation... arguing to be cruel to be others or to myself.

Suddenly reminded of others' cruelty.

So I did.

Dun care le... dun care about the sadness and anger that my decision may cause.

So yea.

And I am free.

16 Oct, break up with audi cpl and changed name to mark the beginning of a new day, to mark the end of this bitter journey.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 4:11 PM

Feeling sick and sian now...

Gastric pain acting up again after so long...

Actually not long, coz i suspect it acted up also during exams.

Haizz....

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 9:57 AM

Sky raining.

Tears of sadness.

Yea true.

Disappointment.

Coz my comp is going against me now.

Going on strike bah. LOL

Becoz I cheated.

NOT that kind of cheat during exams lah.

Dun anyhow misunderstand hor!

I cheated by playing audi during exam periods.

Supposed to be studying.

But just couldnt find the right reason to do so properly.

Especially during last few days--- all turned into gaming days.

I think from maths paper 1, started to slack down le.

Haizz....

Btw the maths paper 2 2day is damn easy loh.

When I finished like about 9.10am, I was a bit shocked sia.

Finished 20 mins earlier.

Very sure of all the ans except 1 2-mark qns in front.

So ya, started looking through, doing all usual checking work.

Then started to stare at the exception qns and thought hard.

It reminded me of maths paper 1.

I was thinking thinking then the solutions came to me.

But tooo late.

Regret.

I was wondering if history will repeat itself.

And i will get the answers just at the last min, but had no time to write it.

But of course in the end dun have lah.

Dk is it a blessing or a misfortune???

Blessing, coz dun hav to feel the guilt and regret once more.

Misfortune is of coz will lose that 2 marks.

Yea, revert back to the cheating part bah.

So retribution???

Exams over, but yet cannot play.

I know it will be up too... but I dun like the waiting part.

Makes u worry and stress????

Haha...

Btw jus now won at 1 event.

Checked the website, and unexpectedly, almost didnt see, saw that I won the event, audi event.

That time be4 exam, go anyway sui bian try try loh.

And really won sia!!!

So happy...

But provided the server gets on and can play again.

Looking forward to it~

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 3:26 PM

Haha 2moro last paper!!!!!!!!

Although is maths, which is going to be hard, i am not that worried.

Haha XD

Coz last paper mah, cant help but think of all the post-exam plans.

First, wanna buy cash leh...

2nd, play audi dao siao. (But first mus break.)

3rd, buy new bag? Best will be claim my exam reward for free.

But that one provided the person promising this, still remembers it and honor his word.

And also provided that i can get 10 or 5??? 4get liao....

Haiya watever but still wan it.

4rd, maybe get a new hairstyle???

But my hair maybe dun like it???

My hair dropping slowly.

Pretty soon going 2 be botak.. :(

Ya... i think that's all bah.

Hope can be over!!!!!!!!!

It's not very far away actually, jus endure it 1 more day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 12:19 PM

History over 2day.

I cant believe how easy the paper is.

The answers are all given beforehand for multiple choices.

The teachers obviously dun wan an ugly scene whereby all students failed.

Haha..

For Section B, the source based one, i am not so sure.

I cant understand the picture, which is a cartoon of a Japanese soldier sweeping the street filled with skulls.

Although i kinda like history this subject, I sometimes hate it.

Like, coz a lot are just common sense.

Hate, coz had 2 repeat a lot of times.

For example, for the Japanese occupation, write so many for practices, and now exam still have to write the same thing.

Will sian wan leh......

I write until haizzzz........

For essay qns, ok, just that I constantly look up at the clock, like every 5min???

dk y. Maybe I had this also last year, maybe not.

I kinda become an anxious and panicky during exams.

Fear of not enough time.

Fear of not completing the paper.

Fear of losing marks.

Fear of getting a bad grade for that subject.

Fear of all efforts gone to waste.

And yea, maybe kenna influenced by the english and chinese paper earlier on.

Always had this problem during language paper.

Always took too much time to cook up an idea.

Always write too slow.

Always never use the adjectives that had been read earlier on.

Always worrying that the idea will not work.

Always having this worries!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watever.....

Just becoz of this exam, I become so paranoid (is this the right word??)

Keep worrying non-stop.

Even in dreams, also am worrying and thinking about the consequences.

I HATE THIS!!!!!

LET'S JUST GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH!!!!!

Never ever wanted this feeling again..... at least for 1 year first....

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 8:45 PM

Brains burning.

Now waiting for it to cool down.

Studied whole day*.

From 1pm to 6pm. Enough le bah?

History should be the focus.

But i think i spent more time on maths.

Ok nvm.. gtg do more exercise now.

Cannot keep sit after dinner.

Will get stomach pain and fat.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 7:04 PM

Brains burning.

Now waiting for it to cool down.

Studied whole day*.

From 1pm to 6pm. Enough le bah?

History should be the focus.

But i think i spent more time on maths.

Ok nvm.. gtg do more exercise now.

Cannot keep sit after dinner.

Will get stomach pain and fat.

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 7:04 PM

Kinda stressed???

2moro HCL paper...

I read all the notes and read the compo book.

THINK memorize all the stuff already...

I THINK.

But sure if can use for 2moro or not......

Seem that I am almost prepared, but I am not certain.

All becoz of the extra stress put in by the teacher 2day.

And maybe becoz 2day also got chemistry remedial and somehow the last 2 hrs of HCL killed me.

Almost starving and feel so hot and cold at the same time. (Hot coz nvr change out of PE... cold coz it's raining at that time.)

So i dunno lah...

Never felt this much stress in the past exams.

And then 2day the teacher emphasized that if for compo 2mro format and the guan jian ju if wrong need stay back.

It shouldnt affect me...

But somehow felt the extra tension.

Somehow afraid that all my memory of the notes will just slip off 2mro.

Haizzzzz........

I just hope it will all go away soon....

And exams be over!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 8:55 PM

Doing this as part of studying.

Feeling all weird without touching comp so here I am, again on comp, but for a good cause this time.

Ok start now..

History
Chapter 1: Was there Singapore before 1819?

• Singapore used to be called Temasek. ( Sea Town)

• The Sejarah Melayu (Malay Annals) is written by Munshi Abdullah.

• It says that Sang Utama, a ruler of Palembang in Sumatra, founded a settlement in Temasek.

• Indra Bopal: the minister who told Sang Utama that the land is known as Temasek.

• Demang Lebar Daun: the minister who said that the breast was known as a lion.

• Singapura grew into a thriving trading centre, which was envied by the Majapahit Empire, under the wise leadership of Sang Utama and his descendants.

• Batara, the ruler of the Majapahit Empire, attacked Singapura, but in the end they were chased out by the locals.

• Majapahit was founded by Vijaya.

• According to Wang Dayuan, a Chinese trader, Singapura was a bustling trading centre in the 1330s and 1340s.

• Artefacts like blue-and-white porcelain, compass, wine cups and coins were found in Fort Canning.

• Towards the end of 14th century, Parameswara from Palembang in Sumatra came to Singapura and killed the local ruler, making himself the new ruler.

• He was later chased out, and Singapura lost its importance as a trading port, as it is replaced by Melaka, which took away the trade.

Haizz suan le....

I think I can do better if I just read.

BB...

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 2:49 PM

Well, yea happy mooncake festival...

1 regret: never got to play a lantern again...

But anyway jus upload some pics here...






















































Just now went pepperlunch for dinner...

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 10:35 PM

Haizz.... :(

Wake up 9.30 am 2day.... (1st time for no reason)

Just now read a bit on science and whole notes of Cl.

When I say read, i am not sure whether i can remember them until the day of exam.

Coz I can't for science.

Few days ago just read about physics light and color chapter.

Then did the revision paper.

Found out yuan lai i got a lot still unsure.

I hate this kind of uncertainty.

I wan absolute confidence and non-hesitant.

So yea.

But this is not the sad reason.

Just now after first session of studying, exercise a bit.

Now here is the part.

No matter how much I do, i jus cant seem to cut down my thigh fats.

Very irritatin leh.

Other parts still ok, just the thigh.

Damn big and filled with fats.

Mus cut off.

But how????

SAD sia......................

Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 3:18 PM