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Reality suxs.
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I'm a girl, who ♥ G-dragon.
Studying in fxcking HIHS school.
Hate me ?
fxck off, pls.
Love me ?
Muackz ! ♥♥♥

fxcking waiting♥

Miracle.
that girl, fxck off.
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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Remembered this morning... Quite scary. I woke up and this thought came to me. My life have totally no meaning no goals. It's just the daily routine keeping me alive. Every morning woke up, brush, dress and go school. Then after school go home and the cycle repeats. I am somehow sick of it and annoyed about it. But there's nothing I can do to change, is there? I looked into the mirror, and saw what I have been every day, so much that it become nothing worth talking about at all now. I kept thinking my life is so failure. I wondered if this is the perfect time to die, leave this worthless place. Then it started to get stronger. And dun know why tears welled in my eyes as I walked down the stairs. Even if I die, nobody will care or bother. I am apparently invisible in this world.

But then in school, this feeling eventually got covered up, and I didnt notice at all-- a good thing though. And then I did something I would never have done before.

During last lesson, english, I told Kemmy about my meaningless life. Then she said stuff like I should live, for my parents, future husband and children. LOL I know this is lame. But then it somehow made me feel better and so my going home mood is better, compared to leaving home mood.

Sometimes, unexpected things happen. For example I told Kemmy because I am quite bored and dun know just feel like saying to someone. And she's the one. I didn't have a choice either. I had nobody else to say to. Perhaps Junior can be another one. But after all she's so much younger--- she won't understand secondary life yet. It's not as innocent as primary school life. And then she's different, so much better than me. Popular, with lots of friends, friends with teachers... So she won't understand the mind of a person like me.


Seriously tired from waiting ☻ @ 10:17 PM