Very tired now. Don't feel like doing anything. Not even the maths journal which should have been done last weekend, but did not. Just now read 1 chapter of Twilight and then the whole newspaper and then chapter 3 of hhistory textbook. Eyes tired sia. WEnt to search for info on the maths triple thing. Result come out a lot of crap and haizz... Just don't feel like reading. And besides i think maths journal won't be collected so early. It's always late collect de. Never on time. But suits me as well too.
Just now got school mission. Basically is sit there hear them talk. But this year's one is slightly more meaningful than last year de, although i forgot what we did last year.
When dismissed, i took the shortcut and just walked home while others had to walk back to school again. As i walked down the pavement, i looked at my primary school just opposite. Haizz...many memories flowed back to me. Some happy, some sad, some llonely, some painful, some meaningful, some hopeless.........
I remembered the classroom right the end of the corner of the building. Could see directly onto the road outside on the pavement. I looked and some painful memories came back. I never realize the classrooms here have curtains. Actually is not realize, coz i never sit near the window that time. Ok back here. P4 maybe the most unforgetable year and most hated one.
The form teacher. First day of school, got 1 lesson think is english. Asked us to get into groups of 5. And then tragedy happened. Class only have 11 girls. And of course i am the odd one out. I knew no one ffrom this class, and even if i knew.....dunkow what crap i am talking. Ok then so no group and no one can take me in. And i won't beg with them to let me in. Even if i did, they won't. So you know what the stupid fk teacher do? Just call me up and scold. Say a lot of crap and just humilate me by scolding me in front of the class like this. Does this really think i want this to happen???? Why should this be my fault???!!! Why can't she understand? And then just leave me alone, invisible..... She never think properly. In front of so many eyes she just scold. I hated her. What happened next is forgotten. I guess I cried or something. My first and last time. This memory is blocked from my miind and no matter how I remembered, just can't get it out again.
Another P4 incident. Another bitch teacher. Biased. I hate her. She thinks she is superior and just treat ppl like shit and favoured some.
She's the dumbass social studies teacher. Got groupwork counted for CA1, or something. Then not allowed to choose members, even if allowed, also nobody to choose. Then got teamed up with 3 hatred boys coz seated in a row of 4 with them. Another is that why am i always seated with boys, and irriating ones, in my school life????????
So they never do the work, i do it all, hardwork, but still the end product is hell. And i think got a low grade. Teacher asked, they pushed blame to me, said they do already. And teacher again scold me for the bad work. No matter what i say, no use. I am guilty for everything. For not submitting in time. For handing in baad work. She's biased against me. Nothing i do pleases her. She had excellent comments for other groups and then just scold and critised me. Only ME and NOT the other gai si boys. This world is damn unfair.
My P4 life, teachers, everything sucks.
